Kanye West Reveals: ‘I Contemplated Suicide’

Kanye West has never seemed like a man who suffers from a self-esteem deficit, but the 808s & Heartbreak rapper dropped a bombshell while promoting his upcoming epic film Runaway on Monday night.

E! Online reports that, in front of a star-studded crowd on hand for a screening of the film, West admitted that he’s thought about taking his own life, more than once. The 33-year-old musician revealed,

“There were times that I contemplated suicide.”

West didn’t elaborate with further details, such as when his flirtations with self-elimination occurred, or what spurred them, but he did reassure the assemblage that “I will not give up on life again.”

West went on to note that one of his motivations to go on living is that he provides other, less fortunate souls with a voice through his music:

“There’s so many people that will never get the chance to have their voice heard…I do it for them.”

Despite a mega-hot music career, West has had his personal ups and downs in recent years, including the 2007 death of his mother, Donda West, following complications from cosmetic surgery,  and a major backlash following his infamous “Im’a let you finish” moment at the 2009 MTV Video Music Awards, during which he interrupted Taylor Swift’s acceptance speech for Best Female Video.

Though cagey about the details of his suicidal bouts, West did shed some light on his period of self-imposed exile following the VMAs fiasco during a surprise appearance on The Ellen DeGeneres show on Tuesday, explaining,

“I left America…I stopped doing music all together. I just took some time. I went to Japan just so I could get away from paparazzi all together. Then in November I moved to Rome and just lived there and when I came back to the states I moved to Hawaii. I lived there for about six months and just worked on music.”

Check out Kanye’s appearance on Ellen below:

West’s latest album, My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy, hits stores on November 22.