'Bachelor' Contestant Melissa Rycroft on Ex Jason Mesnick: I Didn't Know Anything About Him (EXCLUSIVE)
"I didn’t know anything about him," the 29-year-old TV personality revealed while promoting her new book, My Reality.
"I was in love with the idea and how I felt at the time," she continued. "I was in love with the fact that there was this person across from me telling me he loved me," she said.
So, how were sparks able to fly in the first place?
"I guess I got wrapped up in it," she said. "[That's] why I was so embarrassed [afterward], because I look back and I can’t really even explain it, even though, in the moment, I was dead set that I was in love with Jason.”
As the story goes, Rycroft and Mesnick got engaged in 2009, at the end of the show's 13th season. Six weeks after the episode aired, Mesnick dumped Rycroft on live television, during the After the Rose special, then confessed he was in love with that season's runner-up, Molly Malaney. (Mesnick and Malaney married in 2010.)
Despite the public humiliation that occurred in that moment, Rycroft -- who is now married to Tye Strickland -- says she tries not to say bad things about the popular ABC franchise. ("I did get my start there," she admitted.)
However, that hasn't stopped her from confessing the things about the show that still make her "cringe."
"The one thing that makes me cringe is that the producers job is pretty much to make you cry,” she said. “They want to get their drama; they want to see you have an emotional breakdown; they want tears."
"That’s their job. When I think about it like that, it hurts me a little bit.”
Rycroft -- who appeared on a number of TV series post-Bachelor, including Dancing With the Stars and her latest venture, the CMT reality series Melissa & Tye -- also says she thinks it's "excessive" when girls cry on the first night of the show.
"As emotional as I am I wouldn’t have cried the first night, because you probably wouldn’t have even talked to him. At that point the tears are probably more about humiliation.”
Rycroft married Strickland in 2009. They have one daughter, Ava Grace.
My Reality is now available for sale nationwide.