The former American Idol judge famously made headlines July 2013 when news broke that he had impregnated the British socialite while she was still married to Andrew Silverman. The tryst resulted in the birth of Cowell’s first child, Eric, and the 54-year-old now tells the publication that “in a weird way, I probably needed that.”
“You can start to live a slightly abnormal life and there is no question of doubt I was heading down that path,” he says, explaining that he had been depressed and stressed about the declining popularity of his singing competition show, The X Factor, in the United States.
“Did a doctor say I was depressed? Yeah. I mean I knew it myself,” he says. “You are always looking for the next high from the show and then actually if you haven’t got anyone to share it with per se, or if you haven’t got a family around you, you can go a bit nuts.”
Though Cowell is now a happy man as a father, he does feel kind of guilty about getting romantically involved with a married woman. Lauren have since parted ways with Andrew.
“I regret that part,” he says. “In this situation you are not going to come out of this well because of the circumstances.”
“It is not something I am proud of or wanted to happen in terms of hurting anyone,” he continues. You have to deal with it and man up to it. You have to accept the responsibility and the criticism. All I can say is, my advice to you is if it happens to you, you just have to deal with it a day at a time and own up to your responsibilities.”
Cowell, who’s currently still dating his baby mama, adds that his life has drastically transformed since welcoming his son.
“My life has changed, but I am probably more focused on what I am doing now than I was a year ago. Maybe because it puts things in perspective having two people in my life who I am responsible for,” he explains. “The great thing about Lauren is she loves what I do, so she sits in if I am watching Britain’s Got Talent for example, and she has got a good opinion. And I seem to have got my mojo back again.”