Ellen Page Opens Up About Her Battle With Depression Before Coming Out

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Though Ellen Page was finding success in her career soon after 2007’s Juno hit the big screens, she was having difficulties in her personal life. In a new interview with The Hollywood Reporter, the Oscar-nominated actress opened up about her decision to recently come out as a lesbian, explaining that she had been battling with depression and anxieties for quite some time.

“I was sad, honestly,” she said about her dark days. “And obviously that’s a very personal thing to say, but I say it to encourage whatever other people are feeling. Very sad, isolated, a lot of anxiety. No more.”

Explaining that columnistDan Savage was the one who inspired her to speak openly about her sexual orientation as “a social responsibility and a moral imperative,” the actress revealed that she’s had two same-sex relationship — one two-year romance soon around Juno‘s premiere and another “pricklier affair” that followed soon after — that she kept a secret from the public.

“[I was] always thinking about it and thinking about when you’re staying in the hotel and when you’re leaving the hotel,” she said, adding that she had stopped dating when men when she was 24. “It’s so awful and hurtful.”

She continued, “The thought of having to come out to them never really crossed my mind. I was just like, ‘Oh, I’m in love with this woman.'”

In February, Page came out in a speech delivered at the Human Rights Campaign Foundation’s “Tie To Thrive” conference. According to the actress, it was a feat that she had been planning for a long time despite the fact that “80 percent of the industry was aware of her sexual identity when she made her speech.”

“I would talk about being gay, make jokes about it, or go to a meeting and [mention it] — you know, because I’m also producing and starring in a lesbian civil rights movie and I’ve been working on it for years,” she said about the days leading up to the event. “Part of me thought, ‘I don’t think I can wait.’ I thought maybe something would happen before, I’ll just tweet something — but I waited.”