Kesha Opens Up About Seeking Rehab For Her Eating Disorder, Says it was the “Scariest Thing” She’s Ever Done
In the newest issue of Teen Vogue, the “Timber” singer immediately wanted to clear the air about her stay at Timberline Knolls treatment facility, where she spent two months earlier this year and subsequently canceled her spring tour.
“Let’s just get the elephant out of the room,” she tells the publication right off the bat. “My eating disorder is something I’ve been struggling with for a while. People will make up stories, but I went to rehab for an eating disorder—nothing more and nothing less.”
She continues, “I was fighting like hell to keep my whole irreverent essence and everything raw and visceral that I stand for in [Warrior, her last album], but in the end I was promoting something that wasn’t the animal I wanted it to be. I decided to face my problem head-on.”
songwriting that she was penning messages that were fake. “My whole message is to love who you are and accept all your beautiful imperfections. When I felt I was slipping into unloving territory with myself, I knew I had to listen to my own advice and correct it. I have a public persona where I need to be fun all the time, and I refuse to be a hypocrite. I felt I needed to get help, not only for myself but also for my fans. My worst fear in life is to be fake.”
She says things got worse while she continued climbing the ladder in the limelight. “I’m in an industry where people photograph your body and zoom in and blow it up and put it on the cover of magazines, and other people make terrible comments.”
Kesha–likely referring to the public scrutiny she received in 2011 when bikini photos of her Australian vacation went viral–eventually couldn’t deal with the backlash on her own, seeking outside help.
“The decision to take control of it is the scariest thing I’ve ever done, and this is coming from someone who dives with sharks and jumps out of airplanes for fun.”
However, during her stay she wrote 14 songs and feels like that entire process made her a stronger person. She’s already ready to make a new record!