Rihanna Fears ‘Haunted Sh-t’, Admires Eminem, and Will Care About Chris Brown Until the Day She Dies

RiRi’s cleaning out her closet.

Rihanna speaks candidly with Vanity Fair for their November 2015 issue about her rocky relationship past, the burden of fame on her everyday existence, and her rise from timid girl in a Forever 21 tube top who hid from Jay Z to becoming his industry equal.

On trust: “I’ve had to be so conscious about people—what they say and why people want to be with me, why people want to sleep with me…. It makes me very guarded and protective. I learned the hard way.”

On abstaining from new relationships: “I mean I get horny, I’m human, I’m a woman, I want to have sex. But what am I going to do—just find the first random cute dude that I think is going to be a great ride for the night and then tomorrow I wake up feeling empty and hollow?”

On her relationship with Chris Brown: “I was that girl, that girl who felt that as much pain as this relationship is, maybe some people are built stronger than others. Maybe I’m one of those people built to handle shit like this.”

“I don’t hate him. I will care about him until the day I die.”

On Rachel Dolezal: “I think she was a bit of a hero, because she kind of flipped on society a little bit. Is it such a horrible thing that she pretended to be black?”

CREDIT: Annie Leibovitz for Vanity Fair

On personal growth: “We’re all flawed human beings who are learning and growing and evolving and going through the same bullshit as everybody else. … Even tragedy, every trial in your life, is a test.”

“It’s like a class—you take an exam, and if you pass, you move on to the next. You still have to take another test and prove yourself again.”

Click here to read Rihanna’s full cover story from the November issue of Vanity Fair.