Taylor Swift Went Home, Cried, Ate In-N-Out Burger After Losing Grammy for Album of the Year in 2014

No after-parties for Taylor Swift when she lost big time at the 2014 Grammy Awards. Just some tears and a burger.

Swift opened up about her newest, highly-successful first pop album 1989 in an interview with Grammy Pro, and explained how losing the Album of the Year award for Red to Daft Punk’s Random Access Memories in 2014 affected her.

Everybody comes up to you and they’re like, ‘You got it, you’re going to win.’ And I wish they wouldn’t do that. ‘Cause you don’t know if you’re going to win because someone else could very well win and someone else very well did.

When they announced the Album Of The Year winner, it was like, ‘And the album of the year goes to…Reeeeeandom Access Memories, Daft Punk! And they really dragged out the ‘reeee.’ And for a second there, I kind of thought we had it, and we didn’t. I remember not going to after-parties, I went home and I cried a little bit, and I got In-N-Out Burger and ate a lot.

Swift won Album of the Year Grammy in 2010 for Fearless, and losing the same award for Red (which she explains was a little bit of both pop and country) further inspired her to make 1989 completely a pop album.

We don’t make music just so we can win a lot of awards. You have a few options when you don’t win an award. You can be like: they’re wrong. They all voted wrong. Second, you can be like, I’m going to take the mic from whoever did win it. And third, you can say ‘They are right.’ Maybe I need to fix the problem which is that I have not been making sonically cohesive albums. I need to think about whether I’m listening to a scared record label and what that’s doing to the art I’m making.

And look at her now. She’s basically on top of the world: 1989 debuted at number one on the U.S. Billboard 200, and sold 1.287 million copies during its first week of release, which was the highest record since 2002. Swift also became the first artist to sell one million or more copies of an album in a week-long period for three albums.

Watch Taylor’s full interview here to learn more about her process behind 1989.