WATCH: Cara Delevingne Reveals She Was ‘Suicidal’ Before She Began Modeling
Cara Delevingne opened up about her personal battle with depression.
The famous 23-year-old model and actress says she’s had dark days, and considered ending her life before her modeling career began.
Cara spoke at the Women in the World Summit in London about her depression, and went back to when she was 15. “I had very bad learning disabilities,” she said. “I was just pushing past, so I got to the point where I went a bit mad. I was completely suicidal– didn’t want to live anymore. I thought that I was completely alone. I also realized how lucky I was, and what a wonderful family and wonderful friends I had, but that didn’t matter. I wanted the world to swallow me up, and nothing seemed better to me than death,” she said.
Cara said she was put on antidepressants, went to therapy and ‘clawed her way back to some sort of rational thought.’ When she left school a year early at 17, she said she still felt plagued with depression and decided to pursue modeling, but struggled her first year.
“You constantly are told that you’re not pretty enough and not tall enough and not skinny enough, and people are better. When you’re young, you think ‘that means I’m not good enough as a person,'” she said. Delevingne went on to talk about how her modeling career took off as soon as she began working with Burberry.
“After a while, I started to get sick,” Cara said, detailing her struggles with psoriasis. “It was like giant welts all over my body.”
Her illness is what Cara says helped her decide that she needed to take a break las year. “What happened was I eventually said no, and I eventually took a break, to the advice of Kate Moss who kind of picked me up off the floor,” she said. Cara decided to take time for herself to write and do yoga. “Writing is something that really saved my life.”
See Cara’s entire interview above!