Motherhood isn’t all that’s cracked out to be for Kim Kardashian.
In a new blog post shared on her app, the 35-year-old, who gave birth to a son in December, reveals exactly what it’s like taking care of two young children. Admitting that she’s writing her entry at 4 a.m. while “pumping and delirious,” the Keeping Up With the Kardashians star says she finally realizes why Kris Jenner has always told her having two kids feels “like twenty.”
“It seemed like every time Kanye [West] and I would go out, we would see couples—or really anybody that had kids—and everyone would say, ‘Wait until you have two.’ Like it’s the end of the world! I remember Kanye and I would be like, “WTF are they talking about? Will our lives be the same? Are we going to be OK?!” Kardashian muses. “Of course, I expected it to be different but, wow, it really is so hard!”
“When I had North [West], all I did was feed and sleep. This time around, I get no sleep. Every waking second that I’m not with the baby, I’m with North,” she continues. “I actually think the harder parts aren’t with the newborn but with the toddler! I feel like I go into overdrive to give my daughter attention and make her feel loved.”
According to Kardashian, her husband “is super helpful” when it comes to pitching in and has been “taking North out to dinners” so she could have time with her new baby, Saint West. Kardashian also notes that having niece Penelope Disick around really helps Nori adjust to being an older sister.
“I’m so lucky North looks up to Penelope a lot,” Kardashian gushes. “She also has a baby brother so she gives North the best advice.”
“I know we will soon get into the perfect groove and just figure it out,” she adds. “My mom did, my sister did—and I will, too.”
In a new livestream from her app on Wednesday (Feb. 10, 2016), Kardashian told fans that she’ll share a photo of Saint “soon.” She also noted that her baby is living up to his namesake as he always sleeps through the night.