Khloé Kardashian Discusses Divorce and Her Faith in Lenny Letter Essay

Khloé Kardashian has had a unique journey with her religion.

The Keeping Up with the Kardashians star penned an essay for Lena Dunham’s Lenny newsletter about her view of spirituality that’s often overshadowed by more glamorous aspects of her life. She recalls being raised as a Christian by her late father of the same faith and feeling inspired by the gospel music that he would play at home.

“It had so much soul, and he loved that,” she writes.

Kardashian describes her curiosity in other faiths and exploring religions such as Buddhism and Quran through literature and observation, but notes that the most profound experience with spirituality was during Robert Kardashian Sr.’s death.

“After he passed, I was bitter and angry — I was VERY angry at God,” she writes. “I didn’t understand why someone who was so great, my dad — why he would be taken away. My dad was such a believer, so I couldn’t come to terms with how someone with such a deep relationship with God could be gone. I was young and I needed someone to blame for what had happened.”

His passing led to a personal period of enlightenment where daily devotionals and nightly prayers became a part of her routine. “I like to give praise and gratitude,” she says. “I know how fortunate I am.”

Kardashian also discusses her current relationship with her ex-husband Lamar Odom, noting that though she does not believe in divorce she did so in order to take care of her own “mental and emotional well-being.”

“I am at peace with that decision and do feel like I honored my vows to the very end. I feel that I kept the serious vows I made in front of God with every inch of my heart, which is why I am still honoring them today even though my relationship with my ex-husband is in a different place,” Kardashian concludes. “I believe in caring for my partner — past or present — ‘in sickness and in health,’ and feel at peace with my relationship with God even after the fact.”

Read the full essay here, and launch the gallery at the top of the page to view photos of Khloé’s latest outing with Kourtney.