Khloé Kardashian Reveals She Wants to End ‘Depressing’ Marriage to Lamar Odom

It looks like Koko and Lamar Odom are over for good this time.

Khloé Kardashian shared her true feelings on her marriage to and impending divorce from Odom on last night’s episode of Keeping Up with the Kardashians.

She explained to her sister Kim, “I need this marriage to end because it’s depressing. No one checks on me… they always check on how Lamar is doing.” She also revealed that while she is proceeding with the divorce, the former NBA player wants to wait and think on it.

“I need a real relationship. I want a life. This is miserable,” she explained to the camera.

Kim sympathized with Khloé, saying in her confessional, “[Khloé]’s missing out on so much of her life, she has so many life decisions to make.”

Meanwhile, mom Kris decided Khloé needed a break and “get away from all the Lamar stuff,” and she plans a trip up to Napa Valley for her and Kourtney (where they get totally wasted). Odom Facetimes Khloé during lunch, at which point, Kris invites him out to dinner upon her return to LA.

This invitation upsets Khloé because she’s trying to move forward with her divorce. “It’s so hard as it is with just me dealing with it, I love mom and I know her intentions are good but I just feel so much pressure from her. I get frustrated by her like ‘why don’t you want more for me too?’ “

Later on, Khloé opened up about her situation to Kris, revealing she wants to move on and have kids.

I love Lamar with all of my heart and I want the best for him … but now I feel I’m back to it being the hardest thing to do. I want to have kids and maybe to be remarried one day. I need to move on, and I will be filling for divorce very soon.

I want you to remain friends with him, but I still have boundaries. He can still come to family dinners if I invite him or if you ask me.

Kris responded, “You come first and I am here from you. You have to tell me what my boundaries are. I understand and I will be and try better. I am going to be a better mom.”