Michael Phelps Reveals He Once Considered Suicide

Olympian gold medalist, Michael Phelps recently opened up to ESPN The Magazine about his past struggles, including having suicidal thoughts.

Four years ago, when Phelps cemented his place in Olympic history securing his 22nd medal, should have been the happiest time of his life, but the swimmer had hit rock bottom. “I didn’t give a shit,” Phelps admitted, revealing he felt as though he has no identity outside of the pool. “I had no self-esteem. No self-worth. I thought the world would just be better off without me. I figured that was the best thing to do — just end my life.”

His out of control partying and heavy drinking, paired with a drug scandal and a DUI prompted his friends and family to urge the athlete to enter rehab, where he was finally forced to face his demons. At the root of his issue, his strained relationship with his father

At the root of his issue, his strained relationship with his father Fred Phelps, who divorced his mom Debbie when the athlete was just 9-years-old. In rehab, Phelps was able to deal with his abandonment issues and ultimately came to the conclusion he’d rather not have a relationship with his father, “Why? I don’t want that. I don’t need that.”

These days Phelps is in a much happier place, having just welcomed his first son Boomer with fiancée Nicole Johnson, saying “This is a new journey. I truly can’t wait for the next chapter of my life,”