Gwen Stefani Describes Her Divorce from Gavin Rossdale as ‘Torture’

Gwen Stefani openly discusses her divorce from Gavin Rossdale and her newfound romance with Blake Shelton in a new interview with Harper’s BAZAAR.

Stefani winds Laura Brown through her love life, beginning with No Doubt’s bassist, Tony Kanal, that led to her first husband, Rossdale. The pair was married in 2002, but their relationship came tumbling down following rumors of his infidelity in 2015.

“Everybody knows what happened next,” Stefani says of the day that the allegations surfaced.”February 9 … I obviously know the date.”

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She calls what followed “the beginning of hell.” “Like six, seven, eight months of torture, trying to figure out this big secret,” says Stefani.

The Voice coach describes the internal panic that ensued.

“But you know when it gets that bad, you just get desperate? You’re on your knees. You’re like, ‘What do I do?’ You can’t even go to your parents and ask them what to do,” says Stefani before commenting on her split custody arrangement with Rossdale.”It was so insane because not only did my family break up, but then my kids are taken away like half the time, so that was really like, ‘What?! What did I do?'”

“My dreams were shattered,” Stefani continues. “All I wanted my whole life was to have babies, be married, like what my parents have. Then I remember thinking,’There’s gotta be a reason for this.”

After recording her album, This Is What the Truth Feels Like, in the “same black holey T-shirt everyday,” Stefani was hit with an impactful surprise on the set of The Voice by her fellow judge.

“There I was with my big secret, right? And that’s when Blake [Shelton] was like, ‘Everybody, before we go out there, I want to let everyone know that by the time this airs, I will be divorced.'”

Stefani felt shocked and liberated at the same time by Shelton’s confession.

“It was like being handed this gift of a friend who was going through the exact same thing at the exact same time.”

Read Stefani’s article in its entirety over on the Harper’s BAZAAR website, and pick up a copy of her August issue available on newsstands on July 19.

CREDIT: Alexi Lubomirski