Ryan Reynolds Recalls the Moment He Knew Blake Lively Was the One

It’s no secret that Ryan Reynolds is head-over-heels for his wife, Blake Lively.

The actor, who welcomed his second child with The Shallows star this year, opens up about fame and family life in the latest issue of GQ. Though he’s named as the publication’s Man of the Year, Reynolds remains humble about his celebrity status, explaining that he’s happy and blessed to be “having a real American family” and proving that “every idiotic Hallmark-card cliché is true.”

“My baseline’s pretty good, I think, aside from a few pretty intense anxiety hiccups over my life,” he tells the magazine. “I wouldn’t say I’m quantifiably happier now than I was when I lived in my shithole studio apartment on Wilcox in Hollywood. I’m also old enough to understand what’s an illusion and what’s real, and that it’s foolish to try to think that I can control anything from here on out.”

He adds of his career, which inarguably solidified him as an A-lister after the success of Deadpool, “I wasn’t a miserable fuck before I did this for a living, and I would hope that I would never turn into one, because I’m lucky.”

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When asked when did he realize he would marry Lively, Reynolds shares a sweet story (albeit throwing in his signature Reynolds humor at first).

“Probably after the sex,” he jokes. “No, we were hanging out at this little restaurant in Tribeca that’s open really late, and this song came on and I was just like, ‘Want to dance?’ No one was in there, so it was just totally empty. And it was just one of those moments where halfway through the dance, it was like, ‘Oh, I think I just crossed a line.’ And then I walked her home. And, uh, you know, I don’t really need to go into what happened after that.”

Though Reynolds does seem to live the picture perfect life now, the 40-year-old notes that he hasn’t always been so at ease. According to him, he had a little mental meltdown after wrapping production on Deadpool, a movie that took him 11 years to make.

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“When it finally ended, I had a little bit of a nervous breakdown. I literally had the shakes,” he shares. “I went to go see a doctor because I felt like I was suffering from a neurological problem or something. And every doctor I saw said, ‘You have anxiety.'”

“I say this with the caveat that I completely recognize the ridiculously fortunate position that I am in. But the attention is hard on your nervous system—that might be why I live out in the woods,” he continues.

These days, Reynolds is living a quiet life with Lively and their two daughters in their upstate New York family home. Working out of his house, Reynolds looks forward to the sequel to Deadpool and Life, a sci-fi thriller that also stars pal Jake Gyllenhaal.

Watch Gyllenhaal appear in a roast about Reynolds — below.