Louis Tomlinson Wanted to Quit Music When His Mom Was Diagnosed with Cancer

Louis Tomlinson was ready to pull the plug on his solo career after his mother, Johannah Deakin, was diagnosed with leukemia.

According to the One Direction singer, it was Deakin who talked him into continuing with his musical endeavors before her passing in December at the age of 42.

“It’s not something that I feel 100 per cent comfortable talking too much about, but just quickly, when I first found out the news I kind of did want to throw the towel in,” he said during his appearance on Hits 1 in Hollywood on Tuesday (Jan. 17, 2017). “But it was my mum who said to me that I’ve just got to keep going. She told me very sternly that she wanted me to.”

Keeping his promise to the matriarch, Tomlinson performed his collaboration with Steve Aoki, “Just Hold On,” for the first time just days after his mom’s death. At the time, many commended the 25-year-old for his bravery in the face of tragedy.

Tomlinson’s former bandmate and on-and-off nemesis Zayn Malik praised Tomlinson’s performance, tweeting, “Love you bro! All of your family is in my prayers. Proud of your strength and know your mum is too.”

In his first interview since his mother’s passing, Tomlinson added that he’s been in contact with Malik and have settled their feud, which initially ignited when the “Pillowtalk” crooner’s left One Direction in 2015.

“It’s a strange feeling but it’s nice,” he shared of keeping in touch with the rest of 1D. “I think a lot of us have spoken recently, me and Zayn have spoken recently, gotten to a point now where you can just really be happy for each other. Things have happened in the past, of course. It’s great. His first song was an absolute smash and that’s a great song.”