Paris Jackson Opens Up About Her Past Sexual Assault and Multiple Suicide Attempts
It’s not easy being Michael Jackson’s daughter.
In her first-ever cover story for Rolling Stone, Paris Jackson opens up about losing her father at a young age and the emotional toll she suffered following the passing of the iconic singer. When it comes MJ’s death, she “absolutely” believes that Conrad Murray had murdered her dad.
“All arrows point to that,” she tells the publication. “It sounds like a total conspiracy theory and it sounds like bullshit, but all real fans and everybody in the family knows it. It was a setup. It was bullsh*t.”
She also suspects AEG Live, the company in charge of promoting the This Is It Tour, had played a part in the death. At the time, Michael was rehearsing for the tour when he passed away at the age of 50.
“AEG Live does not treat their performers right,” Paris claims. “They drain them dry and work them to death.”
Calling Michael “the only thing that has ever been important to me,” Paris shares that her teenage self did not handle the death very well. In June 2013, while dealing with depression and a drug addiction, she tried to kill herself by slashing her wrist and ingesting 20 Motrin pills.
“It was just self-hatred, low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn’t do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living anymore,” she says, admitting that she’s attempted suicide “multiple times” before that particular incident. “It was just once that it became public.”
“I was doing a lot of things that 13-, 14-, 15-year-olds shouldn’t do. I tried to grow up too fast, and I wasn’t really that nice of a person,” she continues. “I was crazy. I was actually crazy. I was going through a lot of, like, teen angst. And I was also dealing with my depression and my anxiety without any help.”
Paris adds that she was sexually assault by a “complete stranger” when she was 14, saying, “I don’t wanna give too many details. But it was not a good experience at all, and it was really hard for me, and, at the time, I didn’t tell anybody.”
Despite her past struggles, Paris maintains a positive outlook these days. For her, she feels Michael is still with her “all the time.”
“He is my father. He will always be my father. He never wasn’t, and he never will not be. People that knew him really well say they see him in me, that it’s almost scary,” she says, refuting rumors that Michael may not be her biological father. “I consider myself black. [Michael] would look me in the eyes and he’d point his finger at me and he’d be like, ‘You’re black. Be proud of your roots.’ And I’d be like, ‘OK, he’s my dad, why would he lie to me?’ So I just believe what he told me. ‘Cause, to my knowledge, he’s never lied to me.”