Fergie Opens Up About Her Horrific Crystal Meth Addiction
"It was a hell of a lot of fun… until it wasn’t"
Fergie is coming clean about her past addiction to crystal meth.
The singer opened up about her struggles with drugs in a shockingly candid interview with U.K.’s iNews. Not only did she drop to a startling 90 pounds at the height of he addiction problems, but she also suffered bouts of what she called “chemically induced psychosis and dementia.”
“I was hallucinating on a daily basis,” she revealed. “It took a year after getting off that drug for the chemicals in my brain to settle so that I stopped seeing things. I’d just be sitting there, seeing a random bee or bunny.”
Fergie, 42, said she realized the drugs were ruining her life when she started to think the CIA, FBI and a SWAT team were tracking her movements. During one particular incident, her paranoia became so severe that she sought refuge at a church.
“They tried to kick me out, because I was moving down the aisles in this crazy way, as I thought there was an infrared camera in the church trying to check for my body. I bolted past the altar into a hallway and two people were chasing me,” she recalled. The star continued, explaining:
“I remember thinking: ‘If I walk outside, and the SWAT team’s out there, I was right all along. But if they’re not out there, then it’s the drugs making me see things and I’m going to end up in an institution. And if it really is the drugs, I don’t want to live my life like this any more, anyway.’ I walked out of the church; obviously there was no SWAT team, it was just me in a parking lot. It was a freeing moment.”
The songstress eventually sought treatment for her addiction issues before finding fame with the Black Eyed Peas. To this day, she looks back at the incident as a turning point in her life.
“The drugs thing, it was a hell of a lot of fun… until it wasn’t. But you know what, I thank the day it happened to me. Because that’s my strength, my faith, my hope for something better,” she said. “I think I must have guardian angels.”
Earlier this year, she told the Evening Standard she once found herself walking along Los Angeles’ Wilshire Boulevard, screaming and “seeing devils everywhere.”
“That happened. I’m very open about what I call my ‘dark period,'” she shared. “I went into a church and had this epiphany. It was a crossroads. The drugs that I was taking were making me insane. I was definitely seeing things and talking to them.”
She also called crystal meth “the hardest boyfriend I ever had to break up with” during an interview with Time in 2006.
“I dug deep as to why I got there. It’s the drug that’s addicting. But it’s why you start doing it in the first place that’s interesting. A lot of it was being a child actor; I learned to suppress feelings,” the pop star, who voiced Sally on Peanuts and The Charlie Brown and Snoopy Show when she was younger, said.