malapit na rin sumabog!
OMG!
yesterday, while i was in my way home, i am really thinking for what we
or i did in the whole day. i was just think that what if one day, i
wake up with no friends? maybe i wont survive that kind of life.
yesterday is my computer laboratory. heart was late. when she arrived, she sit beside me but we were not talking to each other. truthfully, as of now, im not confortable to talk to heart because things between me were getting change. and it hurt me a lot! i dont know if im just jealous or what. i dont alk to her since last week because i think im jealous that she and allan (who im really pissed off with this gay although his my friend.) was very close. and the worst thing i really hate is she adapted some of the attitude of alan that i really hate. that's why i dont want to talk to her. but i wsa nervous because we are groupmates in thesis. i just worried that the fire between us will go in our work. actually, i really miss heart! i hope she get back to me. :(
at afternoon, aso, cang and i was renting a computer in shop near at our school. we were busy at that time but when i got finish to my work, i decided to see some updates in my account in FS. i saw the new update of one of my friend. she uploaded some new picture. when carla saw the pictures of her, she laugh because of the art she made to her pictures. actually, i was smiling because i feel "angat" every time people criticize her. when aso looked at my pc and look also to my friend's picture, she said "maputi pala 'yan". of course, i disagree! haha. (that is so bad!) when the time i disagree, aso made faces. i think she was irritated with that kind of attitude of mine. i was really upset because aso is one of my best and favorite pal. im just pissed off for what i heard from her.
before we came back to school, i was thinking if i will go home or not. im nervous because of alan's text message to aso. he didn't know that news article will do in a pair. we dont know that he hav'nt yet a partner to do it. obviously, he was pissed off(and im so pissed off too!). i decide not to go home early because aso request it. when the time we enter the classroom, he not make pansin to us. aso asked him if he was mad and he answered that he hasn't. but we were actually feel that he was. so i asked him about our thesis so that i will know if he is mad with me. unfortunately, tinarayan niya ko and it proves that his mad goes to me. lague naman ganun eh. 'pag involve ako, imbes ke aso siya magalit, saken niya binubunton ung galit niya. kaya nga hindi ko magawang gumaan ung loob ku sa kanya eh. i really hate him! im worrying to our thesis because i know him! namemersonal siya. i just hope na makahanp siya na katapat.
im afraid that one day i will wake up with no one in my life that will love me. parang lahat na lang ng tao sa buhay ko masama kahit wala namang gingawa saken. pano ko kaya maiiwasan maiinggit para di na ko masaktan? what do i need to meke myself happy? i think this is the effect of being hurt in a long time. :(
yesterday is my computer laboratory. heart was late. when she arrived, she sit beside me but we were not talking to each other. truthfully, as of now, im not confortable to talk to heart because things between me were getting change. and it hurt me a lot! i dont know if im just jealous or what. i dont alk to her since last week because i think im jealous that she and allan (who im really pissed off with this gay although his my friend.) was very close. and the worst thing i really hate is she adapted some of the attitude of alan that i really hate. that's why i dont want to talk to her. but i wsa nervous because we are groupmates in thesis. i just worried that the fire between us will go in our work. actually, i really miss heart! i hope she get back to me. :(
at afternoon, aso, cang and i was renting a computer in shop near at our school. we were busy at that time but when i got finish to my work, i decided to see some updates in my account in FS. i saw the new update of one of my friend. she uploaded some new picture. when carla saw the pictures of her, she laugh because of the art she made to her pictures. actually, i was smiling because i feel "angat" every time people criticize her. when aso looked at my pc and look also to my friend's picture, she said "maputi pala 'yan". of course, i disagree! haha. (that is so bad!) when the time i disagree, aso made faces. i think she was irritated with that kind of attitude of mine. i was really upset because aso is one of my best and favorite pal. im just pissed off for what i heard from her.
before we came back to school, i was thinking if i will go home or not. im nervous because of alan's text message to aso. he didn't know that news article will do in a pair. we dont know that he hav'nt yet a partner to do it. obviously, he was pissed off(and im so pissed off too!). i decide not to go home early because aso request it. when the time we enter the classroom, he not make pansin to us. aso asked him if he was mad and he answered that he hasn't. but we were actually feel that he was. so i asked him about our thesis so that i will know if he is mad with me. unfortunately, tinarayan niya ko and it proves that his mad goes to me. lague naman ganun eh. 'pag involve ako, imbes ke aso siya magalit, saken niya binubunton ung galit niya. kaya nga hindi ko magawang gumaan ung loob ku sa kanya eh. i really hate him! im worrying to our thesis because i know him! namemersonal siya. i just hope na makahanp siya na katapat.
im afraid that one day i will wake up with no one in my life that will love me. parang lahat na lang ng tao sa buhay ko masama kahit wala namang gingawa saken. pano ko kaya maiiwasan maiinggit para di na ko masaktan? what do i need to meke myself happy? i think this is the effect of being hurt in a long time. :(
