I really am beside myself about Rachel's transition. She was such a beautiful, sweet looking girl who now looks like a transvestite who got beat by a bag of nickels. I can't understand how she looks at herself everyday and actually thinks she looks good...I went to her fiance's memorial at The Boat House in NYC and she was gorgeous. She looks nothing like her old self, unless it's deliberately leaving her old life behind. But it does zero justice for her...ugh!