Well first I'd say that I think it's not possible to have the biggest twilight fan - because I think there's a line you need to cross to be a big fan but you can't be any better at it than the others.
Well I do feel I've crossed this line. It may not see as a fancy fan products or my constant chatter about twilight but I do feel as I'm living it. I felt so identified with Bella that I just couldn't believe it. Every thought was like my own and someone like Edward would definitely be one of my dreams.
I do feel that twilight is a big part of what I want to do and where I'm headed now, since I can feel there's really something beyond the standard. Maybe in books or movies but does that really matter ? If I can feel this happy by just reading a book or watching a movie I think there's no point on going on just ordinary and life without twilight dreams or thoughts. I mean who needs a boring standard life anyway ?