Turns out, Michelle doesn’t fear getting old and thinks she’s too picky – about everything from film roles to lovers.
I do what I want, when I want, how I want, and because of that, it has taken me so long to grow into an adult human being. I wouldn’t want to sacrifice the last years that I have of being youthful in this business to have kids. I’m 36, Milla. It’s been 15 years since I was the lead in my own feature, in Girlfight. So I haven’t done what I came here to do. I’m just kind of fiddling around. I haven’t even been born yet. I’ve been part of really big things that are amazing, but I haven’t taken on that responsibility yet. So I don’t want to sell myself short by having a kid and then regret not doing what I set out to do.
A stringently independent actor, Michelle doesn’t have an agent and perhaps that’s why no “actor” roles “come across [her] table”, just the horror and action ones. She said,
You know what it is, Milla? I’m a picky little bitch. I hate everything. I say no to everything. That’s my problem. Maybe I’ve been sitting here with this gift and not using it appropriately. Maybe I should be developing shit from scratch. Because there’s a voice inside of me that I know people will relate to; I just haven’t really had the opportunity to let it flourish. To sit there and explain to a guy what it’s like to be a kick-ass woman is hard. I think there’re only a handful of directors out there that get it—you married one. Maybe if women like you or me were behind the camera or writing these scripts, it’d be different.
As for the kind of movie Michelle would be interested in pursuing, she explained,
I’d love to see four girls who actually get along in a movie that’s not about chasing some guy or marrying somebody. [laughs] Like, where the fuck is our Pulp Fiction? Where is our Reservoir Dogs? Where’s that cool shit with the chicks kicking ass, having some fun? I’ve met some really crazy bitches in my life and I’ve had lots of really amazing friends; I want to see that onscreen. Maybe I’ll take some time off and just go write, because, fuck it. What do I have to lose?
Aside from her acting career, Michelle made headlines for her flings with model Cara Delevingne (vacationing abroad and having a Lakers game date) and actor Zac Efron (also gallivanting abroad). But were they just “flings”?
Come on. Look at me! I have absolutely nothing consistent in my life. But that’s where serendipity comes in and I love that. One day I’m going to have to sacrifice that to bring life into the world. But the more I can hold off on that, the happier I’ll be. It’s scary for me. I’m a lone wolf. I run by myself on most things. I’ve got lots of really great friends, but the thought of being in a long-lasting relationship? Psh, I couldn’t last more than six months with somebody, let alone have a father figure around for a kid. I mean, if I could give a kid a father figure, that would be amazing.
What does she want (one day)?
I just want that unconditional love, the kind you get with a family member. You might get lucky enough to find that unconditional love in a friend or a lover, but it’s very rare. So if I ever have a kid, it’d be so that I could look in those eyes and know that this child is a piece of me and will love me the same way I love, but I think that’s selfish of me.
Michelle’s latest movie, Furious 7, will be released in theaters April 3, 2015.
Read Michelle and Milla’s entire conversation at Interview.