In the new read, which features lifestyle tips and anecdotes from the reality star, Kardashian is said to detail her tumultuous relationship with the basketball star. According to Page Six, Kardashian, 31, hints at her struggles to stop Odom, 35, from drinking and doing drugs.
“The thing is, you can’t control other people, and you can’t control the outcome of situations,” she reportedly writes in the book, “and if you think you can, you will soon discover that you are sadly mistaken.”
The publication also claims that Kardashian goes into details about her days in Texas when Odom was traded from the Los Angeles Lakers to the Dallas Mavericks in 2011. In the book, Kardashian says she was living an apartment at the W Hotel in downtown Dallas and would be harassed by the paparazzi everyday.
“Is it true Lamar cheated on you? Is he doing drugs?” she recalls they’d ask her. “Every day felt like an attack. It was also humiliating; it got to the point that leaving my house would give me social anxiety.”
However, there is also some silver lining to all of this. Sources that have read the book claims Kardashian thanks Odom at the end for some of the best years of her life, writing, “Before I met you I felt invisible, and after I felt seen.”
As previously reported, the couple withdrew their divorce papers and asked that their divorce be dismissed after Odom was found unresponsive at a Nevada brothel earlier this month. Kardashian, who is still legally married to Odom despite filing for divorce in 2013, rushed to his bedside at the Sunrise Hospital & Medical Center while he was in a coma. When Odom awoke, he was discharged and Kardashian accompanied him as he transferred to Los Angeles’ Cedar-Sinai Hospital.
In July, Kardashian told Complex that she misses Odom “every day” and tries stay in touch with him to the best of her abilities.
“I talk to Lamar as often as I can, which is inconsistent, but not on my terms. I’m very much available—willing or wanting to try,” she said. “I miss what we had, things we got to do together, just our memories. I love looking back and holding on to that stuff. There’s times where I’ll get so sentimental or so sad. This had to happen for some reason, I’ll figure it out whenever it’s time, someone will give me that answer eventually.”