Birthdays are always a little emotional.
“The number one feeling I felt in the relationship was anxiety, because it felt very fragile. It felt very tentative,” she explains. “It always felt like, okay, what’s the next road block? What’s the next thing that’s gonna deter this? How long do we have before this turns into an awful mess and we break up?”
She reflects gratefully on the experience, noting that her time with Styles was “meaningful” in its fragility even though their relationship was not as “solid” as she had hoped it would be.
Watch T-Swift’s raw performance in the video featured at the top of the page.