White’s autopsy report, obtained by TMZ, includes documents which contain excerpts from the late makeup artists suicide note. In the note, which was addressed to the actor, White writes about being heartbroken over their recent breakup.
“I’ve spent 3 days now in disbelief that you’re not here. I can go on brokenhearted and try to put the pieces back. I could, I just don’t have the will this time,” she wrote in a note found by police. “I’m sorry you felt I wasn’t there for you. I tried to give you my best part.”
White instructed for her possessions to be sold and given away, and left funeral decisions up to Carrey, calling him her “family.”
“I don’t really know about burial or that sort of thing,” says the note. “You are my family so whatever you choose will be fine.”
White ended the note asking for Carrey’s forgiveness and signed it with what we can only assume was a nickname given to her by the Carrey. “Please forgive me. I’m just not for this world. Dewdrop.”
As previously reported, White committed suicide last September by overdosing on prescription pills. Authorities found White’s body in her home with the pills next to her body after two friends went over to check on her. White and Carrey had been dating on and off since 2012 and had recently decided to take a break before her death.
“I am shocked and deeply saddened by the passing of my sweet Cathriona,” Carrey told E! News in a statement last year. “She was a truly kind and delicate Irish flower, too sensitive for this soil, to whom loving and being loved was all that sparkled. My heart goes out to her family and friends and to everyone who loved and cared about her. We have all been hit with a lightning bolt.”