Abuse is often generational, and we’ve see this time and again on Teen Mom. Many of the cast members who exhibit harmful and abusive behavior also grew up in unstable and abusive environments.
This past year, we’ve seen the worst of Amber Portwood as she faces domestic violence charges from her ex boyfriend Andrew Glennon. Now, she’s opening up about being abused as a child.
In a recent episode of Teen Mom, Amber came clean with her psychiatrist about her reservations concerning her new boyfriend Dimitri.
She had Dimitri take a lie detector test to confirm that he wasn’t just using her for personal gain. But when the (highly unscientific) lie detector test (supposedly) confirmed this to be true, Amber found herself more scared.
“At the time, ecstatic and when I got home I started crying and I was really scared because now that means moving to the next step of the relationship,” Amber said. “I didn’t really grow up around a lot of love.”
“When all you knew until the age of 14 was, ‘You’re a bitch,’ ‘You’re this,’ ‘You’re that.’ It messes with your head a little,” Amber revealed, it’s “pretty hard” for her to feel stable.
Her therapist pointed out, “I think growing up with an alcoholic father has a lot to do with your adult relationships.”
Amber agreed, “It has everything to do with it, honestly,” Amber revealed of her late father. “At the end, with my father, I loved him to death, but in the beginning, I prayed for his death.”
Meanwhile, Amber has clearly been trying to communicate her mental illness with her boyfriend.
“We were sitting together and just to be curious I went to a website and I translated what bipolar disorder type 2 was, and what borderline was and anxiety and PTSD and s— like that,” she told a producer.
“He looked at me and said, ‘Now I understand more.’ He got it a little bit more,” she explained. “I said to him, ‘Just, sometimes, you have to be gentle with me,’ and I said, ‘You know, it’s not just you that has to be that way, I have to be gentle with you too.’ “